Oh yes. X's. As in "You can be in this club, but you aren't old enough to drink." I've never felt younger while still feeling old. Haha
I went Saturday night to a cafe in B'ham called Bottletree Cafe. Pretty much the best bar I've ever been too. Haha. I went with Jen, Nate, Thomas, and Will. They were doing this Found Footage Festival and Nate and Jen just had to see it. So we went. It was totally funny. What these two guys do is go around the country and find old VHS's in thrift stores and find the funny ones and cut and paste the funniest parts to make a collage of sorts. It's hilarious. Most of the tapes are of course from the 80's and the hair styles and clothing just crack me up.
Afterwards we went to WorkPlay to a dance party called Kids Got The Disco. There we met up with Derek, his cousins and gf, and Brittany. That's when the party started. We danced our little hearts out for what felt like forever.
We partied hard into the night. I didn't get home until 4:30. Yes, in the A.M. Whew! I was beat at church the next day. But! I didn't fall asleep once! I waited to crash till I got home. Haha.
It was super fun. I love those guys. Next time we go out tho, we're gonna hit the gay clubs. That way, us girls don't have to worry about creepers. LOL
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Thursday, March 24, 2011
And Life Goes On
This weekend was one of THE hardest weekends I have had in a while. But, I made it through!
I feel like I have spent a lot of my time boding on something, something that is out of my hands, and now that it's over and done with, I feel even more empty inside. I need something to do. So, I went and looked for a job. I got a couple of applications that I now need to fill out, and I have an interview on Saturday for this 2-days a week job. Hopefully, I'll be able to find something to fill my time with.
I'm reading this book on forgiveness by President Kimball. I read a chapter today about forgiving to be forgiven. I always thought of myself as someone who easily and readily forgave others. I've never really been on to dwell on past misgivings unless I was super offended or hurt. And even then, I wasn't angry long and I forgot quickly. And I'd like to think that this thing that has happened is behind me, though at night, when I'm not thinking, it still hurts. But.. I feel like I can't be at peace until the person I have wronged, the family I have wronged, forgives me. But something I learned from this book is that, it's not on ME if THEY hold a grudge. I did what was right. I have no hard feelings towards them. Towards him. I don't ever want to see him again, and when I think about it, my heart aches, but I only feel sadness of a friendship lost. No grudge. No hatred. I have done what is right, and now it is on them to do the same thing. I know asking their forgiveness right now is pointless and will only make things worse. But I hope someday down the road, years from now, they will find it in their hearts to forgive me. As for now, I have done what's right. I have forgiven, and now it's my turn to be forgiven. Not from them, but from THEM. The Ones that matter. And trust me, I'm working on it. It's going to be a very long road, but I'm prepared to take it because I know it's what I need to do.
I'm tired of wasting energy on something I can't control. I'm tired of crying silently at night. I'm just tired. Waiting for their forgiveness is wearing me out. I need to move on. I've been told that countless times. But, I think Sunday was the last straw for me. My second wake up call this year. So, with this book and THE book, I'll start to move on. What's done is done and I can't keep worrying about it.
I feel like I have spent a lot of my time boding on something, something that is out of my hands, and now that it's over and done with, I feel even more empty inside. I need something to do. So, I went and looked for a job. I got a couple of applications that I now need to fill out, and I have an interview on Saturday for this 2-days a week job. Hopefully, I'll be able to find something to fill my time with.
I'm reading this book on forgiveness by President Kimball. I read a chapter today about forgiving to be forgiven. I always thought of myself as someone who easily and readily forgave others. I've never really been on to dwell on past misgivings unless I was super offended or hurt. And even then, I wasn't angry long and I forgot quickly. And I'd like to think that this thing that has happened is behind me, though at night, when I'm not thinking, it still hurts. But.. I feel like I can't be at peace until the person I have wronged, the family I have wronged, forgives me. But something I learned from this book is that, it's not on ME if THEY hold a grudge. I did what was right. I have no hard feelings towards them. Towards him. I don't ever want to see him again, and when I think about it, my heart aches, but I only feel sadness of a friendship lost. No grudge. No hatred. I have done what is right, and now it is on them to do the same thing. I know asking their forgiveness right now is pointless and will only make things worse. But I hope someday down the road, years from now, they will find it in their hearts to forgive me. As for now, I have done what's right. I have forgiven, and now it's my turn to be forgiven. Not from them, but from THEM. The Ones that matter. And trust me, I'm working on it. It's going to be a very long road, but I'm prepared to take it because I know it's what I need to do.
I'm tired of wasting energy on something I can't control. I'm tired of crying silently at night. I'm just tired. Waiting for their forgiveness is wearing me out. I need to move on. I've been told that countless times. But, I think Sunday was the last straw for me. My second wake up call this year. So, with this book and THE book, I'll start to move on. What's done is done and I can't keep worrying about it.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Spring Break Twenty-Eleven
Well, even though I'm not technically in school, I still decided to do the Spring Break thing. My sister is in school, so that's my rationale.
It starts off with a trip to the beach.... At Oak Mnt State Park. It was such a nice day out, I couldn't help it. We went to the fake beach they have there to tan. It was so nice to feel the sun on my skin again. It'd been too long. Afterwards, we went shopping. Well, I didn't actually buy anything, but Sugoi did. It was fun. We wasted time until the movie started. We saw The Adjustment Bureau. It was freaking amazing. I love Matt Damon. He's such a good actor. Afterwards, it had started to pour. I'm glad we weren't at the "beach" still. Instead Sugoi and i went back to shopping. It was quite the adventure. We found shoes name "Skylar". That was pretty sweet. They were pointy black pumps with purple on the inside. Totally Skylar.
Monday night I went to the B'ham Stake Center to play volleyball, and ended up playing this dance game at Jen's house on the Kinect. It was actually pretty much amazing. I like it so much more than the Wii.
Tuesday was pretty exciting. I ran some errands for Mom, and then I went to the movies with Sugoi, again. We saw Red Riding Hood. Pretty great movie. Cathrine Hardwick, the director, did a pretty good job on this one. She didn't botch it like she did Twilight. On our way home, our car broke down. How exciting. We were stranded on the side of the 65 between Valleydale and Cahaba Valley. It was actually pretty scary. I was stuck there for like, three hours, waiting for the tow truck. By the time I got home, I smelled like smoke and my throat was closing up. EW. But, I went and watched Despicable Me with Kaitlyn Minor. That was fun. Until I got a text that had forever changed my life. But, that's was to private to speak about. On my way home, I was distracted by said text and wasn't really paying attention to my speed, and ended up getting pulled over. It wasn't anything bad. I was just going under the speed limit, and then sped up too fast. The cop, who was behind me, was just worried that I was drunk. LOL. Right. Not. He let me off with a warning to know where my insurance card is. Nice guy. Hot guy. Haha.
Wednesday I went horse back riding. That was amazing. Me, Kaitlyn Minor, Skylar, and Sugoi went to this horse farm in Childersburg that our friend Morgan works at. They were kind enough to let us hang out there for a while and ride their horses. I was the first to get on one, and.. It didn't go over too well. I got about five feet before I gave up. Haha. Then it was Kaitlyn's turn. She's a pro. Then Skylar. He made the horse look like a pony. Sugoi, she couldn't even get on the horse without falling over the side of it. Haha. It was pretty stinking funny. Then, it was my turn again. Goodness. I finally got the hang of it. I was a pro:) OK.. Maybe not. But I could finally get the horse to go and ride it successfully. That is, until the last time around when the horse, Sadie, tripped and stumbled a little bit. Which sent me falling forward, and caused me to lose my balance, and fall of the side. I twisted my leg while doing so, but, it's all better now. I definitely would have gotten back on, had we had the chance. But it was almost four-thirty and time for us to leave. But let me tell you, that was soo much fun.
Today, I don't know what I'll do.... The day is half over and I'm still in my pj's. Who knows what adventure awaits me today.. Probably none, but we'll see!!
It starts off with a trip to the beach.... At Oak Mnt State Park. It was such a nice day out, I couldn't help it. We went to the fake beach they have there to tan. It was so nice to feel the sun on my skin again. It'd been too long. Afterwards, we went shopping. Well, I didn't actually buy anything, but Sugoi did. It was fun. We wasted time until the movie started. We saw The Adjustment Bureau. It was freaking amazing. I love Matt Damon. He's such a good actor. Afterwards, it had started to pour. I'm glad we weren't at the "beach" still. Instead Sugoi and i went back to shopping. It was quite the adventure. We found shoes name "Skylar". That was pretty sweet. They were pointy black pumps with purple on the inside. Totally Skylar.
Monday night I went to the B'ham Stake Center to play volleyball, and ended up playing this dance game at Jen's house on the Kinect. It was actually pretty much amazing. I like it so much more than the Wii.
Tuesday was pretty exciting. I ran some errands for Mom, and then I went to the movies with Sugoi, again. We saw Red Riding Hood. Pretty great movie. Cathrine Hardwick, the director, did a pretty good job on this one. She didn't botch it like she did Twilight. On our way home, our car broke down. How exciting. We were stranded on the side of the 65 between Valleydale and Cahaba Valley. It was actually pretty scary. I was stuck there for like, three hours, waiting for the tow truck. By the time I got home, I smelled like smoke and my throat was closing up. EW. But, I went and watched Despicable Me with Kaitlyn Minor. That was fun. Until I got a text that had forever changed my life. But, that's was to private to speak about. On my way home, I was distracted by said text and wasn't really paying attention to my speed, and ended up getting pulled over. It wasn't anything bad. I was just going under the speed limit, and then sped up too fast. The cop, who was behind me, was just worried that I was drunk. LOL. Right. Not. He let me off with a warning to know where my insurance card is. Nice guy. Hot guy. Haha.
Wednesday I went horse back riding. That was amazing. Me, Kaitlyn Minor, Skylar, and Sugoi went to this horse farm in Childersburg that our friend Morgan works at. They were kind enough to let us hang out there for a while and ride their horses. I was the first to get on one, and.. It didn't go over too well. I got about five feet before I gave up. Haha. Then it was Kaitlyn's turn. She's a pro. Then Skylar. He made the horse look like a pony. Sugoi, she couldn't even get on the horse without falling over the side of it. Haha. It was pretty stinking funny. Then, it was my turn again. Goodness. I finally got the hang of it. I was a pro:) OK.. Maybe not. But I could finally get the horse to go and ride it successfully. That is, until the last time around when the horse, Sadie, tripped and stumbled a little bit. Which sent me falling forward, and caused me to lose my balance, and fall of the side. I twisted my leg while doing so, but, it's all better now. I definitely would have gotten back on, had we had the chance. But it was almost four-thirty and time for us to leave. But let me tell you, that was soo much fun.
Today, I don't know what I'll do.... The day is half over and I'm still in my pj's. Who knows what adventure awaits me today.. Probably none, but we'll see!!
Saturday, February 26, 2011
What Now?
Well, I'm home. And so far I have stayed pretty busy. Up and out and doing things with people every day. I wish it would stay this way, but I have a feeling it will die down soon. So far I have visited with my friends that are still in high school, and I have painted my room and met my sisters best friend. I've been having a good time so far. But, I feel like something is missing.
I think I left some of myself back in Idaho. My new friends, my wonderful niece and nephew, my brother and his wonderful wife. I feel as if I am trying to fill that void with something else. That's why I want to stay busy. I'm afraid that if I don't do something all the time, I'll break down. I come close at night. Just laying in bed thinking about everything. It's not fun.
My friends in high school have tried convincing me to just go to Univ of Montevallo. Maybe that would be best. Leave my past in Idaho. Not have to worry about running into someone who will only bring up heartaches. But...
I don't know. I want to go back. But I'm scared. I'm scared I'll get homesick. I'm scared I'll run into him.. He pretty much hates me, and I'm still in love with him. I need to find someone that will cure me of that...
For now though, I will live one day at a time. Try to stay busy and not think too much, secretly wishing I could go back in time.
I think I left some of myself back in Idaho. My new friends, my wonderful niece and nephew, my brother and his wonderful wife. I feel as if I am trying to fill that void with something else. That's why I want to stay busy. I'm afraid that if I don't do something all the time, I'll break down. I come close at night. Just laying in bed thinking about everything. It's not fun.
My friends in high school have tried convincing me to just go to Univ of Montevallo. Maybe that would be best. Leave my past in Idaho. Not have to worry about running into someone who will only bring up heartaches. But...
I don't know. I want to go back. But I'm scared. I'm scared I'll get homesick. I'm scared I'll run into him.. He pretty much hates me, and I'm still in love with him. I need to find someone that will cure me of that...
For now though, I will live one day at a time. Try to stay busy and not think too much, secretly wishing I could go back in time.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
What a Way to Go
Well, in case you haven't heard. I'm headed home on Wednesday. I have very much mixed feelings about this. I'm sad to leave, but excited to go home.
For my last couple of nights here, me and Carly have been doing scandalous activities, such as Comic Frenzy on campus, and watching horrendous movies, like Tron. Let me start from the beginning.
On Friday night, Carly, Minta, and I went to Comic Frenzy, which is the improv show on campus. It was quite funny actually. I would very much like to go again when I get back. Then, Carly and I came home and did some more awesome stuff, like.... Sleeping. It was pretty legit. LOL
On Saturday I packed. And did some shopping. And packed. I have everything done except for what I am using right now. It went quite fast actually. And that night, Carly and I went on another scandalous activity. Tron: Legacy. OMG. BUST. I was thoroughly disappointed in that movie. Pretty much the corniest movie I have seen in a while. But, I had fun sneaking Campbell's chicken noodle soup into the movies to eat. Never done that before, but I will most likely do it again. Haha.
Sunday day was nothing awesome. I got super pissed off about some stuff and threw a dish at the brick wall by our apartment. That was awesome. Then, I went to dinner at Jedi's house. That was fun. Tucker and Piper are just the cutest kids I have ever met. And I'm not being biased. LOL.
Sunday Night is when the party started. I came home, had a nice little chat with my roommates and then started a dance party. It was nothing big, John from Viking Village stopped by to see if we were really dancing. And then, Minta busted out her black lights and that's when the real party started. Me, Michelle, Minta, Carly, and Kayla got busy marking our arms with highlighters and taking pictures like the world is gonna end tomorrow. It was amazing. We then had a four song dance party and rocked out. Check out my pictures on Facebook if you're interested. It was amazing to the MAX. I'm seriously going to miss these girls. They are so awesome. Love them!
Now, we are watching Star Trek and having a "sleepover" in the living room. I pulled out my mattress and Michelle pulled out hers and we are gonna sleep the night away out here, it being a three day weekend and all:)
Tomorrow I have to clean up my side of the room and get the rest of my stuff packed, because I'm staying the last two nights with Jedi and Aubrie. It will be fun.
I"m nervous to go home, because I haven't been home in a while and it's the middle of the semester. But, everything will work out for the better, I just know it. I'm putting the past behind me and moving on to bigger and better things:)
For my last couple of nights here, me and Carly have been doing scandalous activities, such as Comic Frenzy on campus, and watching horrendous movies, like Tron. Let me start from the beginning.
On Friday night, Carly, Minta, and I went to Comic Frenzy, which is the improv show on campus. It was quite funny actually. I would very much like to go again when I get back. Then, Carly and I came home and did some more awesome stuff, like.... Sleeping. It was pretty legit. LOL
On Saturday I packed. And did some shopping. And packed. I have everything done except for what I am using right now. It went quite fast actually. And that night, Carly and I went on another scandalous activity. Tron: Legacy. OMG. BUST. I was thoroughly disappointed in that movie. Pretty much the corniest movie I have seen in a while. But, I had fun sneaking Campbell's chicken noodle soup into the movies to eat. Never done that before, but I will most likely do it again. Haha.
Sunday day was nothing awesome. I got super pissed off about some stuff and threw a dish at the brick wall by our apartment. That was awesome. Then, I went to dinner at Jedi's house. That was fun. Tucker and Piper are just the cutest kids I have ever met. And I'm not being biased. LOL.
Sunday Night is when the party started. I came home, had a nice little chat with my roommates and then started a dance party. It was nothing big, John from Viking Village stopped by to see if we were really dancing. And then, Minta busted out her black lights and that's when the real party started. Me, Michelle, Minta, Carly, and Kayla got busy marking our arms with highlighters and taking pictures like the world is gonna end tomorrow. It was amazing. We then had a four song dance party and rocked out. Check out my pictures on Facebook if you're interested. It was amazing to the MAX. I'm seriously going to miss these girls. They are so awesome. Love them!
Now, we are watching Star Trek and having a "sleepover" in the living room. I pulled out my mattress and Michelle pulled out hers and we are gonna sleep the night away out here, it being a three day weekend and all:)
Tomorrow I have to clean up my side of the room and get the rest of my stuff packed, because I'm staying the last two nights with Jedi and Aubrie. It will be fun.
I"m nervous to go home, because I haven't been home in a while and it's the middle of the semester. But, everything will work out for the better, I just know it. I'm putting the past behind me and moving on to bigger and better things:)
Thursday, February 10, 2011
How the mess did that happen?
I dreamed in Spanish last night.
I dreamed I was Fran Drescher and I was Latina and I was marrying this SUPER sexy Latino guy that was running for congress... Or senate.. One of those two. But, it was all in SPANISH. Strange!
I loved it tho. It was something different for sure. Mad me happy:)
Today was a great day. It flew by and now I get to be home and chill. Study for a science test I have to take tomorrow and then just relax.
In my science class we are talking about the Big Bang Theory. It amazes me how some scientists don't see that, even though there might have been a big bang, there is NO WAY God didn't have a hand in it. I mean, if the planet was even one millimeter closer to the Sun, as awesome as that would be, we wouldn't be able to live. God's hand definitely had a part in this universe.
In English we were talking about sarcasm irony and it made me realize, I can't describe sarcasm. You just, have to know it and then you get it. But, it's hard to explain sarcasm.. Which kinda sucks, cause sarcasm is my second language. LOL
Anyways, today has been wonderful. It's the start of something great, I'm sure.
I dreamed I was Fran Drescher and I was Latina and I was marrying this SUPER sexy Latino guy that was running for congress... Or senate.. One of those two. But, it was all in SPANISH. Strange!
I loved it tho. It was something different for sure. Mad me happy:)
Today was a great day. It flew by and now I get to be home and chill. Study for a science test I have to take tomorrow and then just relax.
In my science class we are talking about the Big Bang Theory. It amazes me how some scientists don't see that, even though there might have been a big bang, there is NO WAY God didn't have a hand in it. I mean, if the planet was even one millimeter closer to the Sun, as awesome as that would be, we wouldn't be able to live. God's hand definitely had a part in this universe.
In English we were talking about sarcasm irony and it made me realize, I can't describe sarcasm. You just, have to know it and then you get it. But, it's hard to explain sarcasm.. Which kinda sucks, cause sarcasm is my second language. LOL
Anyways, today has been wonderful. It's the start of something great, I'm sure.
Monday, February 7, 2011
Who Knew...
That blowing up stuff could be therapy?.... Possibly arsonists.. But.. Lol
I went on Friday night with Loren Willis and some of his friends and family to make a bonfire over by R Mountain. It was actually pretty fun. The truck I was riding in ended up getting stuck in the snow. And once we got out, it took us FOREVER to get to where we were trying to go. But then we made a fire and just talked and made s'mores and hot chocolate. And once the fire started to die, that's when the real fun began.
Loren took out some of the mini propane tanks we had brought, the ones you put on carotene lanterns, and some guns he and his brother had brought. We moved the cars far far away, and then while Loren and his friend Josh went shooting, the rest of us stood next to the cars to watch. Loren would put one of the mini tanks into the fire, and then when it started to hiss, he shot it. Man! Now I know what it's like to be Native American! LOL. The fire got SOOOOO big! It was AWESOME!! Around nine we decided to hit the road and come back to civilization. Then, I curled up on the couch and watched a movie. I was out like a baby by 11.
On Saturday I went swimming with Jedi and Tucker at the Hart pool. It was fun to see Tucker swim by himself, with a noodle wrapped around him to keep him afloat, of course. But then he threw up and we had to leave 'til the pool cycled through and was clean again. So instead I just went home with Jedi and babysat while they took poor baby Piper to get some shots. Then it was my turn to go shopping.
After shopping I just went up to the school and did some homework for my classes on Monday. I was there for about.. five hours. After a quick dinner with Jedi, I headed out to visit with Aubrie. Then Carly and I went swimming. It was pretty fun. I enjoy spending time with Carly. She isn't as scary this semester as she was last semester.
Fast Sunday came and went. I guess there was some sort of football game going on... The Super Bowl? Yeah.. I didn't watch it.. I'm not really into NFL, more of a college football girl:)
Monday came and went as quickly as Sunday did. Here I am, at 10 o'clock with nothing to do.. Besides science homework... LOL. I should get to work on that....
I went on Friday night with Loren Willis and some of his friends and family to make a bonfire over by R Mountain. It was actually pretty fun. The truck I was riding in ended up getting stuck in the snow. And once we got out, it took us FOREVER to get to where we were trying to go. But then we made a fire and just talked and made s'mores and hot chocolate. And once the fire started to die, that's when the real fun began.
Loren took out some of the mini propane tanks we had brought, the ones you put on carotene lanterns, and some guns he and his brother had brought. We moved the cars far far away, and then while Loren and his friend Josh went shooting, the rest of us stood next to the cars to watch. Loren would put one of the mini tanks into the fire, and then when it started to hiss, he shot it. Man! Now I know what it's like to be Native American! LOL. The fire got SOOOOO big! It was AWESOME!! Around nine we decided to hit the road and come back to civilization. Then, I curled up on the couch and watched a movie. I was out like a baby by 11.
On Saturday I went swimming with Jedi and Tucker at the Hart pool. It was fun to see Tucker swim by himself, with a noodle wrapped around him to keep him afloat, of course. But then he threw up and we had to leave 'til the pool cycled through and was clean again. So instead I just went home with Jedi and babysat while they took poor baby Piper to get some shots. Then it was my turn to go shopping.
After shopping I just went up to the school and did some homework for my classes on Monday. I was there for about.. five hours. After a quick dinner with Jedi, I headed out to visit with Aubrie. Then Carly and I went swimming. It was pretty fun. I enjoy spending time with Carly. She isn't as scary this semester as she was last semester.
Fast Sunday came and went. I guess there was some sort of football game going on... The Super Bowl? Yeah.. I didn't watch it.. I'm not really into NFL, more of a college football girl:)
Monday came and went as quickly as Sunday did. Here I am, at 10 o'clock with nothing to do.. Besides science homework... LOL. I should get to work on that....
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