Wow. Well, in case I haven't already told you a billion times, I am for sure going back to school in the fall. I know it was all up in the air last week, but as of Sunday, I have all of my classes registered and I'm currently working on an apartment. I can't even begin to describe how excited I am.
But I'm going to try anyways.
I know not too long ago I was a little iffy about going back to Idaho. But then I decided that Idaho is where I need to be. And that hasn't changed. I put aside my fears and trusted in the Lord.. But then, when I saw that I was back in, those fears started creeping in again. All of these "What if's" I had before came back to mind. And then the pounding in my chest wasn't because of excitement, but because of a nervous anticipation. I'm so ready to be back in school. I can literally feel my IQ drop every day I'm not learning something new. I'm a dork, I know; but I love learning. It's... Fun? Don't hate. But even then, that didn't over power my anxiety about going back. Sometimes I still wonder if it's the best idea.
I texted a friend of mine from Book of Mormon class and he said he was happy I am coming back. He was pretty excited to hear that we could pick up our morning routine again. He missed me:) That really helped me get over this feeling I had. I was worried that I wouldn't fit in. That people would be able to see through me and see my mistakes. But I have come to realize this is all in my head. Once again I'm excited to be going back. This time I'll be more prepared. I kind of feel like last year was my trial year and I failed so hard. But I'm given another chance and I'm not going to mess it up.
Don't get me wrong, I will miss Alabama and the people I know here. I have grown so close to so many new people, it's ridiculous. It's just what I needed. It helped me remember that I can make friends and that people do like me for me. I can't believe I ever thought any different.
I'm going to go out with a bang. Would you expect any less of me? I have about four weeks left and I plan on spending as much time as I can partying it up and throwing it down. Care to join me?
Stay tuned for more; this is just the beginning.
P.S. I have used the semicolon twice in this post, and I used it correctly. Be proud! My IQ hasn't dropped THAT much!
