Self Discovery

So, I think I have come a long way since 1 AM Saturday morning. I'm done being upset all the time over something trivial. I'm done putting so much effort into one thing that will only hurt me in the end. So from now on, I'll live to make ME happy, and hope that somewhere along the way I'll make others happy as well.
I can't stop smiling. I like this decision. It feels right. I totally needed Saturday morning. Maybe not the heart-ache and trouble, but I definitely needed some time for myself. And though I have been spending every second I can with other people... It helped me realize so much about myself. I changed for a person, and that's not what I'm about. You have to love me for me, and... They didn't.. Well, at first they did.. But after a while I started acting different and in the end, it wasn't good for me. So, here's to the old me, that is now the new me.
I love this feeling.. It's so.. Intoxicating.
You wanna know what else is intoxicating? Breakfast cereal. OMG. It's so dang good! I just had a bowl of my second favorite kind and I'm so happy. I had a headache earlier and I thought it was going to ruin my night. But, I slept it off and at 7 went to the movies with my roommates, and even though it is still there, in the FRONT of my head (I can feel it there), I'm glad I went. We just watched Harry Potter again. Way good of course. But.. Going out tonight was the topping on the cake. The cherry on a milkshake. The chocolate in my malk.
This is the start of something great. I can feel it. Tomorrow will be a great day. And the day after that great as well. And the day after that. No longer will I be sad. No longer will I have bad days. That's a promise. I might have bad hours.. But not bad days. That part of my life is behind me.
It just cracks me up that it took my best friend walking away to make me realize this. And I drove them away. But, we needed it.
You know what else I need? A shower. HA! So, I'll write more later. Thanks for reading! Have a FANTASTIC day:)